IN
MEDIO STAT VIR(autis)TUS...
Our lawyer, Martijn, is
so dedicated that sometimes he seems a "Normal Type":
"Members of the Jury, 'now it can be
told': I introduce
a definite proof of the existence of an
ignored autist class...
'Dear, it's my middle class"!
"socialised autists
with social difficulties"
Martijn brings much more than he knows: rejecting the reductionist definition,
he gives me the opportunity to show my "table of Mendeleiev",
and to propose a dynamic definition.
(Once more, I
need to express my surprise: any time I make a great discovery, the frame
is this table of Mendeleiev!
With holes to be fulfilled and researches already pointed to! And a cosy
place for the Temple-Donna cases.)
We can now compare the
evolution of basic criteria... I'll defend the missing right end, insufficiently
represented by Henry, (Cavendish).
An opportunity to explain
our strange behaviours, (as seen by "Normal Guys") . For instance, at the
right end, (of the Table), we are terribly sure of our fame for ever:
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Arthur, (my "autistwin"), he was awfully sure to become more famous
than Hegel, (I'll help him to do this!). But "Normal Types" make us pay
dear for it, with stupid irony. And we retaliate:
"I'm like Newton? Ask him! I solved
a problem on which he broke his nose... and a lot of bright brains!"
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Anything we do is terribly important for us. "Don't
disturb! we order the world!" Like
Gauss told about his dying wife, asking a little comprehension from her:
"Tell her to wait a moment...", (I
have such sayings? if people repeat them to me!) Just a consequence of
our capacity for concentrating and problem-solving... "
Martijn should not be preoccupied to create a culture. It comes
naturally from our potential. Just see Rimbaud, Chesterton... We are a
success in painting! Many "near-geniuses" could choose between music and
painting: all, like me, turned to brushed, (Angela Kaufmann, Ingres...),
except my "autistwin", Arthur, a musician and the best painting critic,
in my opinion.
A.
INERTIA,
("viene de perlas!"),
a perfect demonstration for my Table, from Alpha to Omega!
"I'm a slow starter; but get out
of the way once I'm rolling!"
A.1 We are "Albertian
mocking electrons", all of us!
At the left end of the
Mendeleievian table, children living two extreme forms, (at times aboulia,
at times hyperactivity), produced by the same
despair for moving things. For this autism, I accept the definition of
a "specialist with problem-inside home",
Dr Milcent, a neurologist and mother (of an autist boy):
"A little mason trying to build his
house with neither tools nor experience..."
Our "inertia"
explains our tenacity, in work, in sickness... a common point among the
commensals at Mendeleiev's Table, all of them. Now, in my seventies, my
body has produced "moderators". Sometimes I wonder whether I did what I
did, like working 24 hours non-stop, or 30 days non-stop. But Edison, Newton
did it?
Newton found "inertia"
in cosmos, ( discovered by Descartes? Not sure: Gulliver's father studied
it, as a joke, in OxBridge...) Isaac practised this "rolling non-stop",
in a strange, strangulating way: sending 22 people to the
gallows and attending the "liturgy".
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When nice little Einstein "moved"
to wrath, he changed as much as his mocking electron, from musical
wave to kicking bullet.
"Not easy to be the sister
of a genius",
said Albert's sister, (do ask his wives!) |
In the cases of Isaac, Albert, and Arthur..., we
should not leave our autistwins to shit-paper-men. We are living under
a glass bell. We don't want to go out. But if we are entrusted more space,
our bell inflate. While a "consultant", I was afraid of passages and big
halls. An appointment to top-top, inflated my bell: I could
be awful, because I had to sound the key-note before anyone saw I was "absent-minded
as Newton", because I wanted to tell who's who, because "where I am,
there is order...", (like Newton sending 22 people to the gallows),
and a lot more excuses, than no "satammu" could invent... Now I admit that
it was just a sublimation of this need of reassuring order, to be found
in any autist child's reaction, refusing any change in his world.
A nice exemple of transposition from extreme
left to extreme right. More when we fill our Mendeleievian Table?
I think all characteristics on the left side still exist on the right side:
for instance, I never was able to attend University courses except the
NCC. Because i wanted toknow whether somebody had "found". So I settled
it in three months, in spite of letters refusing me because "nobody
had done it, nobody could do it..."
Real "geniuses", (and we must preserve and reserve
this word for these people!), are still building houses, (for humanity!).
Temple and Donna, (squatting at the left-center of the Table, and not moving
any more), explained their now-quenched-thirst for learning. But at the
right-center the Table, appears a need to understand,
quite different. And at the extreme right, a need to solve
any encountered problems: need proofs? Cavendish of course,
but Edison, Einstein, Darwing, Newton... Quite different from our present
Nobels, doubtful "sub-geniuses", unable to repeat, (I like Marie Curie:
"Dear Irene, I shouldn't humiliate MIT fellows! And those kings are
so bore! Would you fetch me this third Nobel!)
At that level, we are squirrels, and we swallow,
and archive anything that could be useful later; languages, recipes, techniques,
tricks... (Sent to Katanga, I learned basic Ki-Swahili, a wonderful language
to understand linguistics). On the right side of the Table, "moving" has
been "sublimated" into quiet soft-moving.
Therefore, a question:
Do
people helping us to "settle at the roadside", really help?" - "God
protect us from friends! and lead us not into temptation, of immobility".
As bad, colloquies and disputationes: most scientists deserve "a minute
of silence for lost opportunity". But after the extreme right, there
is a last step, the more interesting:
I've invented a "logical
game", "Chain", (could be called "conscientiously making things moving"),
using the fact that the reward of solving a problem is another problem,
generally bigger, (you have progress in problem-detection, you see what
anybody could see but doesn't see): but, at that stage, you never find
what you look for. You can only find better, if you are a fast-catcher!
like Branly finding TV in a glow, and Fleming revolutionising medicine
with a dust.
A.2 Outsiders' point
of views:
Among various labels
and libels, I was qualified "cyclothymic!",
(the author repented before going to hell!) A "psychologist" described
me as:
"Half
logical, half illogical mind!".
I asked for
a rectification:
At
times logical, at times illogical,
nearly
ad nutum
(and immediately they asked me, (so dangerous a guy) to
immediately teach maintenance in a well-known atomic plant! I refused for
love of mankind and for autistic habit of fully preparing my missions).
A nice
proof that "psychialists" are not ready to judge us, (I had some rows with
these fellows!). 50 years after the discovery of "bicameralism" they are
still stuck to their inverse Binet QIs! Exactly as Vinci and y are ambidextrous,
(we can paint your portrait with either hand), we are "mind-ambidextrous"
and we need ambi-minded QIs! (my joke is creating some for VIPs (Politicians,
Psychialists...)
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We
are, therefore, living paradoxes for "normals"; who accuse us of never
finishing our horse, (remember Michel-Angelo to Léonard? His horse
has just been installed in Milan!) In fact, we drop the problem as
soon as we see the solution, for another problem to solve. |
A.3 Now, why and how we
"change"
(Let my "strong rolling friends" confirm):
- when
I feel I could miss the opportunity of my life.
I cry "Now or Never!" Quite irresponsibly, with awful consequences.
- when
cheated or insulted, I move irresistibly:
ignorant of consequences, I kick, physically, like Arthur, who got into
troubles, and justice, and paying, for years. Sincerely, I'm surprised:
so few "autists" in justice, (time is coming, say the "psychialists", an
explosion of little gangsters).
I deserved jail, according to all franquist laws: how
many have cried "Bastard!" to an españazi judge, or "Bull shit-Paper!"
An "top-autist" can' admit half a second to see false documents with an
imitation of his signature. Now a High QI for "Normals VIPs"; "What I did
in that case?" - "I swallowed the Civil and Catholic codes?", go on, you're
on the way! ! I just RE-READ
BOTH OF THEM! (I had "archived them already, in case).
Now, I am a rightly proud
prosop'autist
condemned and destroyed for
top-autism
with prosopamnesia.
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when
I need dough. Anxiety is a necessary stuff according to the
"psychialists". So,
my "missions" were awfully prepared, I had a liturgy for any new
mission: going for the last books on the matter, buying one year of two
specialised reviews... Plus socks, slips, shoes, trousers... I even created
a liturgy to get a job, really efficient: with three letters, I had two
answers and a job. Sometimes, I was selected before any selection.
B/ "prosopamnesia is
especially common in people with autism"
and Asperger's Syndrome... maybe a first "little
scientific research in that direction..."
Martijn rolls with Francisca Happé, (guessing that we
are "all autists"), and runs with Raymond Bruyer, (that we are "all
prosopamnesian"). It's easy to prove, just a look at mind-cabling and
errors called "synesthesia", (a better way to explanation than "genes").
Over with the reductionist definition: our Table of
Mendeleiev has exploded!
First, a minute of silence for the most famous of
us: when I read his big, wonderful, unique book on face expressions, I
wanted to know "why this study?" Darwin has answer in his memories.
See the relation of his mother's burial...
During the last two years I dedicated more that 4000
hours on that problem, (top-autistically motivated,this
"deficit" simply destroyed my family and gave me my
above-mentionned strange status:
"autist with prosopamnesia
cruelly condemned by two tribunals
for crime of prosopamnesian
top-autism").
On one side, very small results.("God!
don't cure me ever!"),
but
an enormous step at the time when universities are getting budgets for
reconnaissance of faces and facial expressions.
In fact, another time, I feel like Robinson Crusoe on his island, remembering
Popper's demands for true science, ("With whom could
I speak?"). I hope many people will follow my steps, although it
means a treatment for little autistic Hindus, a treatment for a horse.
I surely despise people crying when they find "other
prosops", brothers/sisters on the NET, afraid to sweat on such a problem
as prosop'autism, some months or years, , (could be the key to save next
generations). Let me tell them: the studies I started paid me back, just
for knowing them. Painting portraits was an indispensable progress to understand
Arthur, an introduction into a very close club, a way for an "autistic
bi-culture". Remember my rule:
"At top level,
you can only find better than expected..."
But sorry, Arthur and I were taught Latin and Greek like
Diderot and Montaigne: a Latin fulfilled of 'humanities", i.e. true but
heretical Greek Civilisation. So, I am maniac about definitions.
For me, confusion between prosopamnesia and prosopagnosia is a High
QI for VlPs, (Very Important Psys").
B/
ON OUR "APARTH'AUTISM"
If we could send all testimonies
and researches to this Central Data Bank of my dream, we could deduce a
new theory of autism. Regularly, I want to cry:
"Chain! do chain!... Chaud,
très chaud...
No lo dejes escapar! "
I insisted heavily: "CHAINING" could explain our capacity to make awful
synthesis as well as noting the smallest detail. How do you "read"
this line? (reading has a lot of degrees!):
"... people on the autistic spectrum
generally only have a problem concentrating on other people's
interests - not with concentration per se..."
(Dinah Murray and Mike Lesser, "Computers and Autism", AUTISM99.
That's totally me. I register
fours years in four different universities, 3 continents!) I can't attend
lectures. But I learned a lot, using "private teachers", going my way,
strong!
My last effort on a Varsity
course, (1951), was on "recognising old cities by pictures taken from planes".
I spent my military time inside the University of Beirut, a "Petit Chose",
(1947): I had some meals with the famous Flying Jesuit, Poidebard, who
discovered this technique.
THE VARSITARIAN DID NOT MENTION HIM!
Therefore a
different answer to Martijn's opinion: "...autistic people often report
that they have very few problems communicating with and understanding people
'of their own kind..." Cavendish, Newton, Einstein, Arthur,
Wittgenstein, and so many more, had relational problems. But no 'humanit'arian"
could beat them in generosity and absence of greed... We should understand
at what conditions our "social difficulties" could be solved: making these
"geniuses" useful for humanities instead of delivering us to "satammists"...
C.1 An autistic
person will also rarely read between the lines...
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Arthur pretends that any true genius
remains a child, (that could explain that autistic children love Mozart?)
and any autist is a friend of any children. May I say something more: though
I could not have the least relation with any member of my family, something
special, (called "reciprocal adoration by "outside normals") developed
with my daughter. When she was separated rom me by the "satammus", f ,
for my crime of prosop'autism, all
churches had to disappear... |
I pretend, on my
experiments, that some autists can read minds and even open padlocks, (Temple
said something like that?). Our "specialists" don't agree'? of course,
their
"autism is
"the
autism defined by their definition"!
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We are like in a protecting bubble helping
us to progress but with time, the "bubble" becomes a need to live alone.
Arthur, a false pessimist, stood 27 years alone I hope to win this
game: I arrive at 22 years and 7 months, and not yet dead. |
The danger for right end
people is , (the price for our capacity of total independence), is "inertia",
produced by fits of despondency. Any crook will get us, (the same
when we are lost on a "project" of ours).
C.2 Learning more important
than earning,
I found jobs in the unexisting
profession of "consultants", (90% of them unable to see a real problem
and promising anything. No trouble! a boss can't cry like a Charlot. He
would lose all credit). 9% that was wonderful when given their toro. Then
an extraordinary 1%, that no manager even knows of. During very difficult
jobs, swapping know ledges, I can make friends, "my private teachers!).
But I count them on the fingers of one hand!
C.3 "very hard to do
several things at the same time,
or keep track of several things at the same time.
An example is cooking and talking al the same time":
Effectively some persons
have difficulties to follow a foreign movies while reading the sub-titles.
I would like to discuss my strang training, at the age of 12, taught
to do 3 things at the same time, to rest by changing works.
Is it a variant of the Mukho training for already centered people going
to the extreme right of the Mendeleievian table? Among my "logical games",
there is a kind of "flip-flop": "reading
a novel in Spanish while listening to the BBC". .
What about cooking?
I'm a first class
cook but I hate cooking, awfully monotonous. Now I like mixing
flavours. As said before, we "only have a problem
concentrating on other people's interests - not with concentration
per se..." We have to expect
something unprevisible to be attentive. My meals are always an invention,
"dish of the day", (while in restaurants,this is just "remnants
of yesterday") Once in Central Sahara, I saw "camel meat". I prepared
a "bourguignon". Juicy!
But, to make monotonous
coffee? I have a "liturgy", a sheet of operations. If I "awake", the position
of elements indicates the point the process has arrived at.
C.4 Importance of tales:
Strange
that nobody mentioned the place of tales in our life... Any real book,
relating a true experience, is full of tales. I always spoke in tales,
from
very young, (I can date one, because I joked about ministers of the
months), as an English teacher, (I was quite good because children
like tales), as a philosophy student, (because profs should be awaken
while correcting papers!), as a manager, to with "everybody against
measures", (to count my fans, or to turn people grey-white!)...
I hate all games,
even games for "loners", (we have so many things to do!) but I always ask
the rules of any game I see, (not in a life-camp, because I would be obliged
to play, to pay back!) Now, following Ludwig, I adore to "make
new rules", i.e. to make "logical
games", to improve my mind. Then I play them, alone of
course. I even prepared a wonderful course of creativity. All centred on
the most difficult exercise: nobody, except a prosop'autist, can do it.
CONCLUSION:
Internet has changed
everything. I'm no more reduced to search "autistwins" in history. We could
create a
"Club of the Companions
of Arthur",
(much better than a super-MENSA) people needing, loving to solve and
having solved big problems and to create and having created High QIs for
VIPs. Kick 'em!
Thanks Martijn for this
opening! I tried to show the continuation, to describe the just-evoked
world of Cavendish and Brothers. What we need is a Mukho
crossing from Centre to Right. Me? (It's quite possible I made this hard
voyage !) I think more useful to introduce
my
"theory of conscience",
better:
my "bases to think"...
Any Martijn to hook on?